I wish I had read this book with my daughter two or three years ago, when I first added it to my TBR shelf. But I am glad I read it now.
Aida Salazar's novel in verse, The Moon Within (Arthur A. Levine Books, 2019, 240 pgs), is a beautiful and inspiring book about not just a Mexican-Puerto Rican girl, Celi, entering a new phase in her life, but also that of her friend, Marco, who is also coming into his own. This is a story about growing up: first periods, first love, friendship, family bonds and conflict, bullying, and transitioning. It is steeped in culture, traditions, and heart.
This review includes some spoilers--so stop reading and skip to the next section if you plan to read this novel.
Though I've never seen it
I know my locket is there.
It keeps my questions
my secrets
warm
unanswered
and safe. [excerpt from pg 5 of The Moon Within]
Celi doesn't want the fanfare her mother has planned for her first menstrual cycle. She's embarrassed by her mother's wish to celebrate something Celi would rather keep private and hidden. But her mother does not want her daughter's experience to be the same as hers. She does not want her to feel shame or fear. As a mother and as someone who was once a young girl going through puberty, I understand both points of view.
Celi, your moon will not be like mine.
You will not begin womanhood in doubt
in shame
but surrounded by the strength
of women in your community.
No it isn't. It is a way you've made up!
It is a way that we have to reclaim
so that we are not erased. [excerpt from page 182 of The Moon Within]
In the author's note, the author talks about how something once so celebrated and honored in some cultures has been made to feel dirty in modern-day western cultures. This is something I have observed too, although I like to think the tide is changing.
As Celi navigates her changing body and puberty, her friend Marco is going through his own changes. Born a girl, Marco has long felt more like a boy. I loved how Salazar celebrates him in his and his family's acceptance of who he is. The author draws from precolonial indigenous, Mesoamerican ideas and beliefs, referencing the Aztec god Xochiquetzal, who was both male and female. Xochihuah, people with dual genders or who are gender fluid, are believed to have been considered sacred and well respected.
While Celi loves Marco and their friendship, conflict arises when the boy she is crushing on is rude to Marco, deadnaming him and making fun of him. Celi struggles with her feelings--her attraction to Iván and her loyalty to her best friend.
My locket lies open on
a shore of a sea
of confusion
steady sand grounds my feet
like Marco--my best amifriend forever
but the waves of Iván
crash into me
a foam that wraps around my legs
sends a tingle through my body
and swarms my heart
with a feeling of
first love? [excerpt from pg 141 of The Moon Within]
Celi's relationship with dance, music and the moon (Luna), play a big part in this book. Celi is most herself when she is dancing, often to the sound of drums played by her father or Marco. It is a part of who she is. The title itself suggest the importance of the moon to the story, as it can be tied to the moon cycle as it relates to the female body. And here the author brings dance and the moon together:
I watch her light up a sliver of dust
in my room.
Like a performance
small specks dance
twirl,
bounce,
float,
glide,
somersault.
They dance like I do. [excerpt from pg. 7 of The Moon Within]
I love the idea of a moon ceremony; and while it is not a tradition I carried out, it is one I admire and see the beauty in. The picture painted by Salazar as she wrote about Celi's moon ceremony was very moving and heartfelt.
As my last offering to my moon altar
I lay my first doll, Alma, inside an open gourd
then I add a flint, for protection
and a spool of thread to mend
her bird-print dress
I say goodbye beneath my breath
while Mima sprinkles her
with crystal dust
that feels like love. [excerpt from pg 197 of The Moon Within]
I also really liked that she included Marco in the experience, incorporating his transition in such a way that honored both him and Celi.
The Moon Within carries such a positive message and the characters are very relatable. It was everything I hoped it would be and more.
Have you read The Moon Within? Have you read any poetry or a novel in verse recently?